“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus….”(v.28-28)
This is one of my most favorite stories. And one I feel l can relate to. I always want to be the Peter who trust Jesus so much he actually walks on water. I mean who doesn’t?!
But sometimes I know I’m the peter that doubts. The one that starts walking on the water but the minute the wind blows you lose your faith. Honestly, don’t we all have these moments? Not that it’s one of our most proud moments…but there’s times in our lives that we are overwhelmed, we have everything going wrong, and we just want to give up and we lose our faith. But you know what? That’s when we say Lord, help me have faith. Remind me of your goodness. You call out to the Lord just like in Mark 9 when the boys father proclaims “Lord I believe, but help my unbelief” (v24) Because that is when the Lord comes in and shows Himself to you, when you are weak He is strong. He wants you to call out to Him. He will be there to catch you and lift you up.
Right now I’m in a season of truly trusting the Lord. Trusting Him to completely provide for me. I know He can, and trusting that He will. I’m trusting that when (because even Though I hate to admit it, I know it’s a when not a if) I doubt, He will be right there when I call out to Him to pick me up and show me He has me. That He is the ultimate provider and what He has called me to, He will provide a way.
Asking you to pray with me in this time of trusting our Father to provide.
“I will go before you and will level the mountains; I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who summons you by name.” – Isaiah 45:2-3
God is so good. I can’t even begin to explain His goodness. He told me I had to do something, and honestly I said no. Let me tell you, don’t ever say no to God.
I was beyond nervous, and I didn’t think this conversation was going to go well at all….
To begin, I love my parents very much. I respect them and I never want to disappoint them. I know that they are going to support me in all my decisions. But I was sure what I was going to tell them was it. Who really wants to tell your parents you want to go a prat of the world that is in the news daily? It’s going to be a hard conversation.
Two weeks ago God told me I need to talk to them and tell them what He had told me. I honestly didn’t want to. I had no clue how they would respond. Actually, I feared it wouldn’t be how I wanted. And when God said tell them, I said no. That’s probably not something you should ever tell God.
A week ago God said now. I doubted God. I even almost didn’t tell my parents. BUT GOD. When He gives you something He will go before you. He is teaching me that when He has something for you, He will make a way. The complete opposite happened, this conversation was so good. My parents were so understanding and knew this is what I have to do. They support me in this and are helping me with the planning and everything I need to do in order to make it happen.
God’s plan is not to be messed with. No matter my doubts, no matter my fears, no matter if I tell Him no…He is going to make a way. I’m thankful the Lord gave me the parents He did. Even when hard conversations need to happen, because I know every hard conversation, every moment of my life He is using to mold me into the person He has created so He can use me to bring glory to Him. My Lord is faithful.
You know what funny? God gave me this verse, Isaiah 45:2-3 back in May before He took me to Greece. He knew I would need it. Sometimes His plans take time. And He’s only going to show what He has for you if you show Him you are trustworthy with what He has already given you.
Keep stepping out in faith. The more you step out the more you will know His voice and the more comfortable you get with stepping out.