Life is crazy. So crazy. And things happen and you get pulled in a million directions. People need you. You get busy at work. You want a social life. And when the heck are you going to sleep? That’s exactly what happened to me. I kept telling myself, “hey alyssa, your goal this year was to blog. Sit down a write what God has been doing.” But you know what I never did. This past month has been the craziest. Waking up at 3 am most morning. And then not getting home till late. I wore myself out. So much so, I became sick. That what your body does-people don’t believe it but your body is smart. Every time I do this to myself, which honestly and sadly I do a lot, I’m amazed and how God created our bodies. He created them to work in certain ways only bodies could. Our bodies need physical rest at the same time we need spiritual rest. He has been telling me this over and over again over the past couple weeks.
A couple weeks ago I was able to get away for the weekend and serve some sweet sweet families at what my church calls family retreat. I always love getting away from the fast pace life of the city and getting in my naturally habitat of country life. Just being surrounded by nature, Gods creation instead of city buildings does something to refresh my soul and spirit. Then getting to love on children brings me so much joy I feel like I could explode!
While away I was able to spend some time alone, and alone with the Lord. He showed me this verse; “Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.” Jeremiah 29:12
Wow. So powerful. I’ve been sitting with this verse still. He says it right there, you will call on me and pray to me and I will listen. He listens to us. He cares for us. He cares that I’m tired. He cares that I want to be in a different country. He cares that I want to learn to love my family well and better. He cares that I’m struggling with going to work everyday. He cares that I worry about money. He cares that I don’t really like my neighbors. He cares that one of my coworkers makes my head want to explode. He cares. And he will listen. He wants to listen. He already knows, but He wants you to talk to Him. That is just so comforting to me. To know how much my God, who controls everything cares for me. That He cares about every little thing. And He wants me to share with Him.
Then a couple weeks after that weekend still overwhelmed by how much He cares for me, It’s Easter. The whole week of Easter this verse is on my desk; “He himself bore our sins” in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; “by his wounds you have been healed.” 1 Peter 2:24 and every day leading up to Good Friday I read this verse. I sat there and I thanked Him. Just overwhelmed by His love. He wants a relationship with us. How crazy is that? Me. A sinner. Someone who fails daily. Who is broken and messes up. He wants to talk to me. So much so that He sent His son to die, the worst death possible. And then raise him from the dead so that I may walk and talk with Him. So I could bring my worries and struggles to Him. To bring my brokenness to the cross so that i may be healed. I sit here overwhelmed. And grateful. Oh how we are loved.
Today, I had an after hours meeting. So I left the office a whole lot later than what I would normally. And as I’m driving home the sun is setting and it’s just behind some clouds. I see it’s rays shining through. And in that moment I see Gods glory beaming. I loved seeing that little glimpse of Him. It reminds me of who He is even in the midst of all the craziness.